reloss of the regain.

So I’ve been using this app on my phone called NOOM and I find it helpful for logging steps because it turns on the pedometer automaticannly if I’m walking with my phone on me. Also, it has little tips and acitivities to coach me, which is neat. I don’t like the food logger though, they do it by color? It is confusing. I kind of want to get the pro version anyway because I like the coaching stuff ALOT. I wound up going back to the sparkpeople website to log food, which I would do with their app but I don’t particularly like their food logging portion of their app. Daily Burn Tracker is OK-ish but nothing to write home about…So, any ideas on websites with android apps that can help log exercies, food, and coach me? I am thinking NOOM is probably the winner of the three but maybe you guys know of another one?

So the good news is that I lost this week! My new weigh day is fridays. I lost 2.8lbs. Yay Us!

noom diff

I’m still shy about getting back on the camera. I don’t know why really though. It is weird. shame? I dunno.

I talked to the ninja about the regain for the first time on wednesday. I mean, he knew I hadn’t been losing but he had no idea i had gained 30lbs. within the 18month honeymoon period even. i told scott and my friend cathy too…trying to hold myself accountable. The ninja and I agree that it is probably more habit than emotions that has sabotaged me…or well, I sabotaged myself. I need to get back to tracking (started today), measuring (sporadic and starting today), weighting (once a week starting last week), waiting 30 minutes between eating, (started last week for most meals) and exercising….that last one is a doozy. i wish i could be kind to myself about all of this but i quickly go into “you (me) are a worthless piece of lazy crap!” which just makes me want to eat more and run away more and care less. anyone out there relate to that?

I feel better that we are talking about the regain and the shame of it instead of just ignoring it, i feel good about that. so there is something.

PLUS! I lost this week, which feels as awesome as I remember.

Keep Changing, Keep Growing,

Maggie

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One Response to reloss of the regain.

  1. truthbenaked says:

    Don’t isolate, I would love to help because I need the help myself. Accountability partners right? I haven’t lost in 7 months. Luckily I haven’t gained but I can’t seem to lose this last 40 pounds. I’ve heard so much about the bounce back gain after reaching the lowest weight and that freaks me out. pinkfishlilly mentioned a website that may provide the coaching you are asking for called http://www.virtuagym.com. I honestly haven’t checked it out yet, you’ll have to let me know how it works for you. For now, I recommend joining the back to basics group on fb, I have really loved that site.

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